Snowflakes

When I was a child I would love winter, when I could play outside in the snow for hours without ever getting cold. I could make three snowmen in an hour easy. (Mostly because the first two would be too big for me to put together, but still!) Now I dread winter, with all the ice and sleet. I just don't find it fun to have to go outside in the cold wind and rain to build a snowman that is just going to slowly melt in the cloudy sunshine. I guess that means that I have finally had to grow up, and that's kind of sad to me, that I don't find it fun or meaningful to do something that won't last. I miss not even thinking twice about makeing that lopsided figure of winter, just because that was where the fun was, not in looking at the finished project. Sometimes thinking about back then makes me think that in more ways then one, six year old me was smarter then sixteen year old me.

Running in Place

Everyone is always talking about the future, what you need to do to get in to a good college, so that you can get a good job, so that you can have a good life. But no one ever tells you early on that you need to think about what it is that you want your LIFE to be about. I mean everyone and anyone will ask a little kid what they want to be when they grow up, but how often do they ask a 12 year old. If you are between the ages of eight and fifteen, no one really takes the time to care what you want for a career. So when somethings out of sight it's out of mind, it's basically like running in place. And now, when you are so close to having to pick a path that you will have to follow, and pay for, and live with, it's kind of hard to think of something that will really interest you out side of the normal doctor or teacher kind of thing. So I don't know what I want my life's work to be yet, but I do know that I want it to be something that is challenging that that will help people on a basic level.

Roller Coaster of Life

One day you can be perfectly fine and then all the sudden, out of no where, you wake up bored and exhausted with your life. It's not even that anything has happend to bring you down, it's the fact that nothing has happend. Nothing to keep you interested in your own life. It's at those times that you have to make yourself get up and out of bed to find something that will excite you tomorrow. I think the reason that this is so hard for people to do is because it is hard to get out of one's comfort zone and try to find something new. But, when one finally gains that courage, it makes everything else in their life all that more important to them and gives them more energy to roll out of bed and start the day.

The Real You

That one person in life that has always been there,
Always able to tell anything;
Not that you tell; the fact that you can.
Never dreaming that you could lose them;
That day comes, you lose them,
Knowing you will never have that;
Honesty, trust, understanding with anyone else
Better if you’d never known that kind of trust existed.
Just happy you had the chance to let someone really know you.